My name is Autumn Ash

 Hello welcome to my page my name is Autumn Ash. 

I am Wiccan I am also a witch.

I grew up with parents that didn't go to church but they deemed themselves Christian. you could say my mom was the most devoted Christian even though she didn't go to church after she got married. she  did stand by her Bible and read it everyday. She did her best to tell me about God, Jesus, Christianity, it was up to me to go to a church to learn about these things. "That if I am curious" I thought she preferred me to be curious and I was curious about religion. In the second grade I used to have a best friend who was a devoted Christian her parent's went to church every Sunday and I eventually went to church with her. I went to church with her for a couple of months, talked about subjects with my mother, and eventually I drift away from going to church with my friend. That is my first church experience.

When I entered my teenage years. I started exploring other religions. Catholic, Lutheran, Baptist, southern Baptist, Methodist, Wicca!

I do admit I was drawn to Wicca. I had an interest in it. There was something I like about it. Also at the same time I had terrible guilts. Because when you study the Christian side of things you get a little brainwashed. 

I will admit I had bounced back and forth between Wicca and Christian. I had dropped Wicca for a while and looked into Catholicism I had dropped Catholicism because my mother was not very happy with that so I went back dealing with  baptist. Then there was a point I dropped it all for a few years.

Then Wicca whispered to me again. I went back exploring Wicca for a few years and then my mother became sick very sick. I was worried that I did something wrong. I may have cursed the family or something  And for my mother's sake I quit Wicca once again.  

My mother was cancer free for 20 years luckily she got to raise me and then she end up with cancer 20 years later it was an excruciating time . I had lost my spirit, I had lost my path, I had lost my light, it was very dark. I was very sad that this woman had to experience cancer again and this time, this time, she's not only fighting cancer she is fighting type 2 diabetes and  high blood pressure. She was diagnosed in February 2002 and she passed away from this world August 2002. I was devastated

I prayed, I apologized, I was sorry that my mom was experiencing this  and it doesn't seem like anything was listening to me. She passed away I went back into guilt and then went and joined a church for a while. I spent a couple months trying to feel a connection . I could not ever feel a connection. I started questioning things. And then I decided I quit.

Something stayed connected to me. My intuition always talk to me sometimes I didn't listen to it other times I did. I left North Texas and went to South Texas and stayed there for a little while. To figure out why I feel so spiritually lost. I picked up going back into Wicca again. I had also picked up a spiritual book these are the books where people had pass life experiences when they were hypnotized. Something about this book has touched me and it pushed me more into Wicca. The internet is a great place to get to know people in Wicca, your books are the best place to learn because not everybody is innocent. There's just as many people in Christian as there is in Wicca that can mess up your path so you have to have good intuition who to trust and who to do not trust. But I can tell you on my life journey I have learned plenty. I am very comfortable with Wicca and I'm very comfortable to consider myself a witch. With the guidance of Lord and Lady and the dignities I feel pretty spiritual-centered. I am a pretty straight up person. 

I have taken guidance to reading Wicca Year and a day by Timothy Roderick . a fabulous book. I do recommend it. Most people are going to tell you Scott Cunningham is the book you should be reading. I have nothing against Scott Cunningham's books his books are fabulous but I think you get a deeper connection if you pick up the book Wicca Year and a day.